we take what we can get

Why are you doing this? You know what blood does to me. Because you let it control you. You always have.


Stefan Appreciation Week;
     Day 1: Why you love Stefan.

Because he’s not good — but he tries to be. He’s killed and enjoyed killing far too many people to ever be ‘good’, but he’s not ‘bad' either. Despite what Lexi has led him to believe, it's not as black and white as that. He's done so many bad things but he turned his life around and tried to change. He made the choice to try and do better. He stopped feeding on humans altogether — completely changed his diet and risked his own life in the process — all so he wouldn’t risk killing anymore people. That’s why I love him; because he’s dark and complicated and the inner workings of his mind are too complex to just say ‘he’s good, he feels guilty because he’s hurt people’ (he feels guilty because he enjoyed hurting people too) because that doesn’t give Stefan Salvatore enough justice.

I also love how in his attempt to do better, he developed this ridiculous savior complex. Whether it’s trading places (Jenna, Jeremy, Damon), saving them from themselves (Caroline, Elena, arguably Bonnie) or just literally saving them (everyone) — he’ll do it in a heartbeat. Run into a burning building for the man he spent the whole season wishing would leave? Without a second thought. Willingly give up Elena and his ‘human’ life with her and the illusion of control he’s been fighting to withhold all these years to save his brother’s life? Why would you even doubt that. And then there’s his relationship with Elena; he respects her decisions, he has a mutual understanding with her, and their bond was deeper than just sexual tension. She could be independent with him and he treated her like she was her own person. It doesn’t hurt that he has a rockin’ bod either.